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scarletmorning) wrote2011-09-18 12:49 pm
scarletmorning) wrote2011-09-18 12:49 pm
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I'm here.
The travel was not too long and yet so freaking tiring. I couldn't sleep at all the night before and it was horrible. I had a headache the whole time. And I almost missed my flight. I probably would've broken down if I had. I mean, I was close to breaking down pretty often. Right now as I'm writing and recalling where I am and that I'm not home makes me tear up again. And that in the library. (My internet in my room isn't working yet)
And it just feels so wrong and strange. I'm hungry but when I eat I immediately get sick of it. I barely ate anything yesterday or today. This is all so... I just wish the lectures would already start so I get some distraction. But as it is with the Welcome Week first ...? Too much time for me to brood and cry and stuff.
The room is okay. I'm not feeling particularly comfortable in it, but it could be worse, I guess. I have four housemates (one hasn't arrived yet) and having them around stresses me more than I thought it would. Social interaction is just... so scary and uncomfortable and... I don't particularly want it. I have to live with them for a long while though so... I see a happy future in front of me /sarcasm
Not even writing can distract me because my mind is so overloaded with fretting and what you have seen already that I can't think of... fanfiction.
At the moment I hate this all. Hopefully that will change soon.
The travel was not too long and yet so freaking tiring. I couldn't sleep at all the night before and it was horrible. I had a headache the whole time. And I almost missed my flight. I probably would've broken down if I had. I mean, I was close to breaking down pretty often. Right now as I'm writing and recalling where I am and that I'm not home makes me tear up again. And that in the library. (My internet in my room isn't working yet)
And it just feels so wrong and strange. I'm hungry but when I eat I immediately get sick of it. I barely ate anything yesterday or today. This is all so... I just wish the lectures would already start so I get some distraction. But as it is with the Welcome Week first ...? Too much time for me to brood and cry and stuff.
The room is okay. I'm not feeling particularly comfortable in it, but it could be worse, I guess. I have four housemates (one hasn't arrived yet) and having them around stresses me more than I thought it would. Social interaction is just... so scary and uncomfortable and... I don't particularly want it. I have to live with them for a long while though so... I see a happy future in front of me /sarcasm
Not even writing can distract me because my mind is so overloaded with fretting and what you have seen already that I can't think of... fanfiction.
At the moment I hate this all. Hopefully that will change soon.