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13/4/12 18:24In the morning I kinda wanted to make a rambly meta-y post, but now I just. I want everything to end or just stop. I'm just. So angry again and everything is annoying and I just want to curl up and never stand up again. Can't the whole world just stop moving? I'd appreciate it.
Fuck you, day.
Teaches me to take my anti-dep more regularly. Stupid head, who forgets all the important stuff.
Only positive thing today was that I suscribed to the next Swedish course.
Fuck you, day.
Teaches me to take my anti-dep more regularly. Stupid head, who forgets all the important stuff.
Only positive thing today was that I suscribed to the next Swedish course.
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2/11/11 15:49Posted my Fadia/Vigarde story on ff.net and dreamwidth. I still love it though it kinda makes me uncomfortable in my current state of mind.
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Things have happened in rl, but I don't feel like talking about it. Suffice to say, I'm not in a particularly good state of mind at the moment (restless and hopeless would be fitting adjectives). If I'm very quiet or only talk about nonsense, this is why.
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Also, have I ever told you that I hate the sounds a cat makes when she's cleaning herself? Because I do. It makes me a bit sick. Stupid, loveable and cute cat.
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Things have happened in rl, but I don't feel like talking about it. Suffice to say, I'm not in a particularly good state of mind at the moment (restless and hopeless would be fitting adjectives). If I'm very quiet or only talk about nonsense, this is why.
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Also, have I ever told you that I hate the sounds a cat makes when she's cleaning herself? Because I do. It makes me a bit sick. Stupid, loveable and cute cat.
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18/9/11 12:49I'm here.
The travel was not too long and yet so freaking tiring. I couldn't sleep at all the night before and it was horrible. I had a headache the whole time. And I almost missed my flight. I probably would've broken down if I had. I mean, I was close to breaking down pretty often. Right now as I'm writing and recalling where I am and that I'm not home makes me tear up again. And that in the library. (My internet in my room isn't working yet)
And it just feels so wrong and strange. I'm hungry but when I eat I immediately get sick of it. I barely ate anything yesterday or today. This is all so... I just wish the lectures would already start so I get some distraction. But as it is with the Welcome Week first ...? Too much time for me to brood and cry and stuff.
The room is okay. I'm not feeling particularly comfortable in it, but it could be worse, I guess. I have four housemates (one hasn't arrived yet) and having them around stresses me more than I thought it would. Social interaction is just... so scary and uncomfortable and... I don't particularly want it. I have to live with them for a long while though so... I see a happy future in front of me /sarcasm
Not even writing can distract me because my mind is so overloaded with fretting and what you have seen already that I can't think of... fanfiction.
At the moment I hate this all. Hopefully that will change soon.
The travel was not too long and yet so freaking tiring. I couldn't sleep at all the night before and it was horrible. I had a headache the whole time. And I almost missed my flight. I probably would've broken down if I had. I mean, I was close to breaking down pretty often. Right now as I'm writing and recalling where I am and that I'm not home makes me tear up again. And that in the library. (My internet in my room isn't working yet)
And it just feels so wrong and strange. I'm hungry but when I eat I immediately get sick of it. I barely ate anything yesterday or today. This is all so... I just wish the lectures would already start so I get some distraction. But as it is with the Welcome Week first ...? Too much time for me to brood and cry and stuff.
The room is okay. I'm not feeling particularly comfortable in it, but it could be worse, I guess. I have four housemates (one hasn't arrived yet) and having them around stresses me more than I thought it would. Social interaction is just... so scary and uncomfortable and... I don't particularly want it. I have to live with them for a long while though so... I see a happy future in front of me /sarcasm
Not even writing can distract me because my mind is so overloaded with fretting and what you have seen already that I can't think of... fanfiction.
At the moment I hate this all. Hopefully that will change soon.
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8/9/11 21:54I thought I managed to get rid of that "head shake" tic years ago. I do not think that it's a good sign that it came back in the last days.
*angsts a bit*
Also, tried to write earlier but it was more of a fight with myself than fun. :( Uuuuuuuuuuuh. I'll maybe try again later.
Random headcanon minute of the day:
Fado is missing one incisor and one back tooth. Hayden isn't missing any. About 2/3 of the Magvel knights are missing at least one tooth. Duessel and Gilliam are definitely missing at least one, I just don't know which.
*angsts a bit*
Also, tried to write earlier but it was more of a fight with myself than fun. :( Uuuuuuuuuuuh. I'll maybe try again later.
Random headcanon minute of the day:
Fado is missing one incisor and one back tooth. Hayden isn't missing any. About 2/3 of the Magvel knights are missing at least one tooth. Duessel and Gilliam are definitely missing at least one, I just don't know which.
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