Alle Kunst ist der Freude gewidmet

I was thinking about how far they would go to accomplish something, mostly win a fight/war. (That was kinda a left-over musing from the Vigarde&Lyon fic Sacrifices.) I was musing about both of them, because I love to compare Hayden with Innes (and Fado with Ephraim), because they are canonically quite similar in personality. What mainly prompted this musing was a Subway to Sally song, though, "Die Schlacht".

Manchmal muss man, um zu siegen (In order to win you sometimes have to don
keusche Unschuldsmiene zeigen;  (a chaste and innocent air;
sich in wahrer Demut üben,   (practice living in true lowliness,
schüchtern sein und ganz bescheiden. (acting shy and meek)

Manchmal muss man, um zu siegen (In order to win you sometimes have to
Freunde morden und verraten; (murder friends and betray them;
man muss lügen und betrügen (you have to lie and cheat,
man muss sähen böse Saaten. (you have to sow the seeds of evil.) Subway to Sally - Die Schlacht

The translation is not the best, because it's almost impossible to keep the rhythm intact (and you really cannot replicate the grammatical structure of the verses into English. The grammar systems are too different). So, this whole thing sparked my wondering:

What would Hayden and Innes be willing to do to reach their goals? Edit: I'm not thinking straight today so I merged two different situations into one. The "would they sacrifice family" thought is actually separate from the "how far would they go" thought. Go, me >> To clarify further; the "would they sacrifice family" assumes a "sacrifice one person or hundreds of others will die/suffer horribly" situation.

And I came to the conclusion that under almost no circumstance Hayden would betray his family and friends. If his "friends" gave him reason to, he might (only if no other possible solution works). Hayden would never (and I mean never) sacrifice his family. For nothing. He might sacrifice his friends if he is pressed to do it (it would haunt him for the rest of his life, but he would). His family is Hayden´s big weakness, though, especially Tana and his wife. He would rather put himself (and everybody else) in danger than his daughter and wife (Innes is a bit of an exception since he's a soldier. He's more prepared to sacrifice a soldier. Yes, Tana is a soldier as well, but, well, Hayden doesn't truly accept it in his heart.)

He would lie and cheat. As long as he considers his cause good and justified, he would have absolutely no problems with that. The same with provoking disputes; though he would try to not let it grow out of control.

Hayden would put on a false act to get what he wants/needs. He would probably not like it, but he would rock it. He is a good actor.

Now, Innes on the other hand... He is the same in regard to lying/cheating and putting on a false act (though I believe he wouldn't be as good as Hayden at acting innocent).

So, what about sacrificing friends and family? I took me long to come to a conclusion. But in the end... yes, I believe Innes would sacrifice them. He wouldn't particularly like it, of course, and he would try to find another solution, but in the end he would do it. Innes would go farther than Hayden.

(But to counterbalance that; I believe that Hayden is more conniving and back-stabbing than Innes. Innes tends to be more honest, because he wasn't taught as much as Hayden to be conniving (with the strong conflicts with Grado back then, Hayden was highly encouraged to be... mean to them))

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Unrelated to that, I'm kinda wondering if it's strange that I never assign specific songs to characters. Maybe because I tend to never listen to the lyrics (the only thing that is important for me is that the melody is nice and that the sound of the voice is nice and fits) and if I do, only if they're fun or creepy. I mean, I rarely listen to German music (and then it falls under the mentioned categories) and I don't bother to pay attention to lyrics in other languages. And honestly... I hate it when I understand the lyrics. They always distract me from the music itself and therewith take all my enjoyment away. That's the reason why in general I hate German music. I do not want to know what you're singing about. Normally it's cheesy or stupid or nonsensical or just plain horrible. If the lyrics are in a different language, I at least don't notice how horrible the lyrics are. >8X

Alright, enough ranting for today.

So. Posted my Moulder->Hayden story, Part 1 just now. I'm kinda happy how it turned out~ On ff.net and dreamwidth. And on dreamwidth it actually has links to the original text of the prayer I used. Ff.net likes to nom links. Ney ney ney.

It turned out really long. Over 7500 words. :D Moar slash in the future. Also femslash.

Apart from that, I still feel good today, yay~

So, posted a little Fado/Hayden piece (on ff.net and dreamwidth) I need more practice with writing Slash (wait, does this actually get capitalized? Oh English, why you have so little capitalization?). It doesn't go as smooth as I want it to go yet.


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First I wanted to talk about stuff, but in the end I decided that that stuff is unnecessary and is pretty uninteresting. So I'll shut up now. 8D

Dear Cat,

this is my book and my coffee drink. Stop rubbing your face all over it. It's still all mine.

Sincerely,

the person who feeds you and is thankfully not covered with cat hair at the moment

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Decided that FemHayden´s name is Eira. It's pretty 8D Maybe I'll write the Fadia/Eira story later, hm. BTW, FemVigarde´s name is totally Victoria (because Viggy = Vicky, oh yes XD) Aaaaaaaaand as soon as I have a title for my 10_orders  fics I'll put the first Bro AU part up (The cheating arc is three parts long. And then we also have fluff/shenanigans)

Edit: Scratch writing or posting. I just got "Odin Sphere" and will be playing now foreverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

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Self, stop fangirling about the Staufer. Especially stop fangirling about their shenanigans they did for keeping their rule which are often quite cruel. Still, Konstanze was a bamf and Heinrich VI <3 All bastards.

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Sea Scallops, so tasty <3 With rosemary sauce and polenta and green asparagus <3 Oh, and the köttbullar a few days ago 8D I so do have to make them again <3

Just wrote a short Valter --> Hayden drabble. FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF. I'm a bad person XD Will be posted later, I have class in a few minutes. Writing Valter shouldn't be that much fun, should it?

EDIT:

HERE HAVE VALTER OBSESSING AT FF.NET AND DREAMWIDTH. YAY~

I've noticed that I ship Fado/Hayden in all forms; m/m, f/m, f/f. Everything is awesome. Which lead me to the conclusion that Fado is definitely bi with a preference for women. Because boobs. Boobs (gotta love the sound of it). Now, the same is not true for Hayden. I see him as straight; he is not attracted to men or the male physic in general (the reverse is true if he's a girl). Fado is the only exception. He is fadosexual, so to speak 8D

Since we're on the topic of FemHayden. Still no good name yet. I thought of Halida, but I don't really like the sound. :( (Oh, and that is a real name even. Surprised me.)

Ya know. That icon wasn't supposed to sound/look shippy. But in conjunction with this post it kinda does XD

Edit: I'm reading a dissertation about a ship´s surgeon from the end of the 18th century and his observation about the spreading of diseases on ships and it's terribly interesting. Hopefully I can use some bits in my pirate AU 8D Also, it gives me a better feel for life on a ship.

Edit 2:

I want to ask you a favour of you all. I want to write a few characterization practice drabbles with the brokings, but I need a few lines they can react to. So would you just give me a random line (not as a narrator but a line of dialog)? Nothing cracky, please, because I want to train my srs characterization. (If you can't come up with something non-cracky, oh well, give me the crack 8D)

So, I've decided to post my writing exercise now. It was mighty fun, even though the ending was surprisingly hard XD There was just no good breaking point. So I added a bit Hayden&Tana adorbs. YOU KNOW ME. I CAN'T RESIST 8D Anyway, comments would be lovely.

And next thing will either be another battle scene exercise or a characterization exercise 8D

Because I have nothing better to do than reading supports during a lecture 8D (omg, still so boring).

Anyway. First one is pretty normal and not earthshaking like the other one, but rofltastic nethertheless!

Artur: So this is a wyvern...
Cormag: Hey, what's going on here? Don't get too close now. It may look calm now, but it's got a dangerous
side. Like me.
Artur: S-sorry! Oh, the name is Artur.

Cormag, that sounds like a bad pickup line XD "He's dangerous, just like me *wink, wink, nudge, nudge*" Ffffffffffff, did Viggy teach you nothing? XD

BUT! That is nothing against what I found in the Moulder/Vanessa A support.

Just a little context; in the B support Moulder tells Vanessa the little Innes story about the show archer and how Innes beat him. It is obvious at the end of this support and in the beginning of the A that Moulder knows that Vanessa has a crush on Innes. And then this comes:

Vanessa: Father... Thank you again for the other day.
Moulder: Hmm? Oh, you mean that story?
Vanessa: Yes.
Moulder: Ah... You know, you remind me of myself, twenty years back.
Vanessa: Huh?
Moulder: Oh, never mind... ... Good luck to you, Vanessa. I don't know where this will lead, but I'm sure the prince knows your feelings.

O.O What does that mean? How are they connected? The topic is still "crush on the Frelian prince". Which means that Moulder had a crush on a Frelian Prince as well. Now, if we remember the quote in the Gilliam/Moulder support, namely that Hayden´s coronation was approximately 15 years in the past... That would make Hayden the Frelian Prince, who Moulder had a crush on. o///o And according to my headcanon, Hayden and Aileen are already married (and I think Innes is already born).

What is this...

XD That is awesome! (And since Moulder would be in his teens if I assume that Moulder is in his early to middle 30s in game and there is no pornstache yet, so it doesn't go into DNW territory) OMG, drama and ZOOM, god, that is awesome XD Ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff. I kinda want fic about that.

Okay, stop fangirling, self 8D So. Much. Want. (I like one-sided crushs.)

Nn, trying to find a name for Fem!Hayden because I think I need some femslash in my life. But there are no pretty names with H D8 Also, the fact that "Hayden" is an unisex name was not only surprising but also completely unhelpful, because I can't let her have it. I would be compleeeeeeeeeeetely confused by that (and everbody else probably as well). I fear I then have to use my "H" name default name; Helena or Helen(e). D8 Do not really want.

Ah, names, I hate you.

So, now off to breakfast and then mowing the lawn.

Wow, there's much going on on my flist. But I will not add to the WTF!

No, I had a (wonderful) dream tonight. I dreamt that I had a Hayden doujinshi and I wanted to make icons. But then I woke up and noticed that I don't have a Hayden doujinshi ;°; Much sadness was had. Well, there was also the part with the fucked up Uni courses, but, uhm, how does my brain come up with philosphy? Somehow, lately, my dreams all feel like videogames.

Alright, that's all. I mean, it's not like anything already happened today! I just woke up.

I want a Hayden doujinshi. And I want more Hayden icons.

Thong!Valter in heels is scaaaaaaaaaary. Pic later.