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It's kinda awkward to write porny fic while sitting next to your aunt and grandma playing canaster. Even more awkward that your aunt knows that you write fanfic and speculates that you're just writing fic because you're hammering on your keyboard. Even more and more awkward when she jokingly says that you're writing about them.

...

Awkward. >> (I just said, "Yeah, no, not really")

('Twas Vigarde/Minna, btw. They're cute)

Also, completely different than that above:

My brother's wedding went well. Everything was pretty cool and stuff and the food was yummy. There were fireworks at the very end, as a surprise for the bride. And I was able to leave at the exact right time; I'm feeling good today and not emotionally exhausted and depressed. It feels like I was slowly approaching my limit. At max half an hour away from my breaking point. So I'm pretty content with how things went. 8D (Otoh, now I know that feeling markers for my level of energy is hard, very hard >/ )

Also, my little brother and I should never be allowed to sit in the first rows of a church during a mass. We cannot keep our mouths shut (but then the song texts were hilarious, dammit. Oh, yes, I want to be set on fire by God's love. Burning to death is so fun). Good thing we had to sit in the back so we could leave before the couple to hold the banner.

I kinda want to write about little!Vigarde and his father Vanya. Vanya more and more becomes an interesting character. He is an ass, but an interesting ass with some good sides. The relationship between him and Vigarde is so... intriguing.They do somehow love each other and yet have so different morals and clash badly later. The awkward position Vigarde is in as someone who was taught to respect and obey his father no matter what. Who is intimidated by him for a long time and battles with himself because he knows/feels that his father does some morally very questionable things (including killing his wife, Vigarde´s mother). Who starts looking up to his father and wanting to fulfil all of his expectations and who later resents Vanya for his cruelty, arrogance and hate for Frelians.

So much fun. But I'm not sure if I'm up to it :q Writing seems so meh. Thinking about it is fun, though...

Also, I haven't forgot that I wanted to talk about Fado&Ephraim. I'm just to lazy to write it down >:8

After Valter slaugthered those innocent village people, all Vigarde does is strip him of his title and exile him? He just sends the nutjob into another country so he can slaughter there some more? I mean... why was he not sentenced to death? Is that not possible? Had Vigarde a lapse in judgement? Seriously.

Also, still mourning that Viggy is not on the Grado wallpaper. Everyone else is on it but the bloody emperor. ;^; /heavily biased

So, self, now finish the Louise/Pent drabble. 8D Klein wants to be adorable.

Edit:

I. HATE. SUMMER. Go die in a fire. I hate living in an attic. SERIOUSLY. All the heat gathers there and ghiersgb ndyutgcb so much hate.

My life is full of aaaaaaaaaaaangst. Vigarde aaaaaaaaaaaangst to be precise. Because he doesn't leave me alone :( (It's like I have a mini-Vigarde on my shoulder or something and wants cookies. Aaaaaaaaaaangst cookies) The current one was supposed to be creepyVigarde, but I can't make Viggy creepy. It might have a bit of creepy scenery and stuff and acting, but I personally don't find it particularly creepy. And the ending, oh I love the ending >8D Bitter sweetness, muahahahaha! /hasn't even started with it but still loves it 8D

Anyway.

The Hayden&Innes piece feels longer than it is. lolwut? Maybe because I don't manage to write longer passages at one time. (It's only about 3800 words yet)

It still feels weird to write about characters I don't even like so often. It's all for the bros... 8D That makes me happy again.

Also, guro I found that "guro" is not the adequat description I was looking for (yay, for learning new meanings). "Excessive violence" is better. Go out of my head. I know I could never draw those beautiful pictures so stop torturing me ;w; And I seem to be obsessed with zombies those days >8I Zombiessss~ Oh boy.

First I was thinking about self-analyzing myself again, but I don't believe anyone wants to read how I (incoherently!) ramble about why I can write certain characters but not others XD and how I always put something of myself into the characters (most of the time just a really tiny thing. Just a little quirk, maybe). And don't worry, I always check if it fits the characters personality. But, as I said, no one would want to read that.

Instead I tried to stop associate the voice of the singer of Turisas with Fado because the voice just fits Fado. (And the mental picture of Fado with their face painting is just rolftastic. Add a kilt and you have Braveheart in red/black XD)

Oh, and I have Viggy angst for you (on dreamwidth). Because Viggy angst is my favourite flavour of angst. Originally that was supposed to be the meme fill of raphi´s prompt "smile", but then I thought it didn't fit and raphi probably wouldn't want Vigarde angst anyway. And Lucius had been my first idea anyway (well, then I forgot it, got inspired with Viggy angst, wrote it, and then remember Lucius and wrote that one).

And since I'm on the topic of Vigarde... You know, I don't particular care if people read my (bro) stuff. I just put it out there and people can decide if it's their cup of tea or not (and enjoy it silently or not. As long as they have fun, I don't care 8D). And still it feels kinda... weird to post all my bro stuff on ff.net. It's all very irrational and contradictory but... sometimes I wonder what people think when they see my bro stuff. Something like "that strange person writes about minor characters nobody cares about, lol". It does not exactly bug me but... AGH! I don't know. It feels weird. I'm wondering if I should even bother posting there sometimes because sometimes I believe no one cares anyway. But then I also don't really care if other people care at the same time >:/ This is such a strange weirdness and I know it's contradictory but I still feel both feelings. Aaaah, why so complicated? Oh well, feelings are rarely logical or coherent or make sense. *sigh*

Oops, now I did self-analyze without planning it XD Oh, and I'm kinda sick. Dammit. I have to hold a presentation tomorrow >:/

14. Your latest gaming wallpaper

Because it would be too cumbersome to make screen shots, I've uploaded them on photobucket: This is the one on my big computer and this one is on my little writing computer. 8D The only one with Fado D8

( Nobody wants to see those poor questions )
Because I'm a dork and forgot something yesterday XD

So, the lecture. Where I re-learned about the amicitiae. I was told another funny story. About some monk who saw the afterlife on the brink of his death, called the "visio vetini". Now, what did he see? Mostly hell and at one point he "met" Charlesmagne. Now that he found a bit surprising because Karl´s body was all shiny and luminescent, which was a sign that he was a good person. But not all was well, because there was a horrible monster eating away Karl´s penis (and the rest). Because even though Karl did many good things in life, he was a lustful person and that's why he was in hell and punished. (Moral of the story is that your good deeds do not negate your bad deeds)

Now, you get three guesses what thought appeared in my mind after the initial "Pfffffffffffffffffff, XD" left.

One tipp; it starts with a "V" and ends with "iggy". XDDDDDDD

I don't know if I covered everything, but this is all I can come up with now. Maybe I have to expand things later. 8D

( This feels like an angst fest, damn... )

Characterization post may be coherent or not 8D Oh you Grads. I don't really love you (apart from Viggy) but I'm still sorry what I do to you. I make you so angsty, Viggy.

Soooooo, I've posted my depressing Viggy/Minna piece. For some unknown reason it forced me to post it so quickly. It just felt good the way it was. :/ The story can be found at ff.net and at my writing journal on dreamwidth.

Poor Viggy.

Also, since we are on topic at the moment; what kind of hair colours do the bro wives have?
Aileen would probably have blue hair (this is Fire Emblem after all). Innes already has Hayen´s hair so FE logic dictates that Tana has Aileen´s hair colour.
Eiri and Ephie have Fado´s hair colour so their mother could have any colour. But since I think she's from Renais, she should have a colour that's "typical" Renais like blue, green or blond. I'd choose blond or brownish blond.
For Minna, I would choose light blue. Lyon´s hair colour looks mostly like Vigarde´s, just a bit lighter.

And Noam would have the typical Jehannan red hair. Because that colour is awesome.