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You know what? I'm annoyed. Okay, not really annoyed but... argh, no, there's no better word for it now. So I was in the library again. I didn't really do what I wanted to do but mostly wrote or edited fanfiction (it's not unusual for me not to do what I'm supposed to do, so that didn't annoy me).

BUT! I wrote my second idea for an entry for the fe_contest . And I nearly cried. Because the story is so sad and contains once again a character death and makes me so sad that I nearly cry in a public library. The first part makes me cry and the second part makes me sick. What kind of shit is that! (And the second part is not even written yet, oh joy) But I still want to write it. Even though the story makes me sad and sick I love it because it's my creation. Sucks. Gah, I'm not sure if I will use this story as entry anyway. The last one was already a death fic. I don't know if I want to post another one. Damn it.

The first idea is -nobody is surprised- a ghost story again (well, it plays in the realm of ghost). What happened to me? Why can I only think up ghost stories or tragedies that most of the time end with the death of the protagonist? On the other hand, I looked through my other fics. About two-thirds are tragedies or semi-tragedies as well, only one third have a happy end or a semi-happy end. Seems like I'm just no writer for happy things ;A; But I want to write happy things *whines*

Geoffrey, I 'm soooooorry ;A; I really don't want to kill you. Damn prompt, damn rainbow. Can't somebody pick a prompt that makes me think of happy things?


Now for something (not so) completely different:
I have the strangest urge to read something about Marcus. I mean, he's awesome. His supports with Lowen and Eliwood are cute and hilarious. Does somebody knows a good story with/about him? I already know the ones on FF.net. Are there somewhere hiding some good fics in the internet?

Also, I started on my Gary Stu fic for the tenth fe_contest . I'm not one hundred percent sure if it's good yet. In my head the story is hilarious. And I already incorporated one of my favourite Sue-feature; stupid names. Though, they're not that stupid but weird. And it's not really a feature that I see often in FE. Other fandoms have it worse. Anyway, I hope that I can make the actual story as funny as it is in my head. But when I looked at my whining above.... I'm not too hopeful.