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Wow, I had a really strange dream, two actually, tonight. Somehow I was always close to die in the first one and the second one was so strange, I couldn't even describe it. Oh boy.

So, the result of the discussion: 
1. my thoughts are still fuzzy and unclear.
2. Ephraim, I start to dislike you again. Sorry, Fado, your son bugs me.
3. My dislike of idealists is renewed. I may be an optimistic pragmatic, but idealist still make me oh well/sigh/eye roll/annoyed/OPEN YOUR DAMN EYES. Mixtures of those levels is possible.

And unrelated to that; I want to write gore. Maybe. Hm. Well, drabbles first.

Edit: My mood is very strange at the moment. Might not answer to comments today. Feel very weird.

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Now I know why I felt so weird earlier. It was the sign of an oncoming summer headache. Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuck. Massive headache at the moment. Summer should go die in a hole, seriously. So much hate. It's the same every year. I have most of my headaches during the summer months. That's why I could never live in a hot country. Argh.

Was at an ERASMUS meeting earlier, nothing new was learnt.

Wrote angsty Vigarde because I like that flavour of angst.

I also have to write a fucking application letter until... tomorrow. FFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU-- Hate it so much. Something about application letters is just annoying as fuck and I don't even want to get started on how you have to write them. I mean, I have no idea what to write! They ask for "working in a team" and I say "I prefer working alone". Great! Being able to work independently, yes, that I can do. Showing initiative, yeah, I could probably do that, maybe. Dedication? Shall I show you all my hobbies that I ditched after two years each? Yeah, shows perfectly well how dedicated I can be. Gawd, I hate this so much. I'm so, so tempted to just ditch this course. Bah. But I probably won't because I know myself. Shit.

I hate being so gloomy. I want a Knoll Doll so it can absorb all my gloom.