(no subject)

[scarletmorning]

8D

So, in other news.... I found something very strange out.

Very rarely I get "possessive" of pairings. With means that I only like one pairing of certain characters. Seeing them paired with other characters sends a strange feeling of... sadness mingled with a whiff disappointment over me. I don't know why that is. I have no reason to be sad or disappointed. The feeling is still there, however strange and unnecessary I think it is. I kinda was okay with that until now, because it was only one pairing.

But now... I do not ship it anymore. I lost practically all my interest in that couple. And yet... whenever I see them paired with someone else, this sadness/disappointment comes back D8 And I don't know why! It doesn't make sense :( Is this sentimentality? Some leftovers, because said couple was the reason why I started writing fanfiction? It's kinda... ridiculous. Any ideas how I could change that? :(

On a "happier" side: as soon as I want to gleefully tear a character down and want to do horrible things to them, they have risen to the rank of a "favourite character". It's the special ~priviledge~ of my favourites. Somehow I don't think that they would be happy about this 8D

Comments

[xirysa]

Handwriting fonts are pretty great. Also, you write your lowercase F's similar to how I make my capital S's.

I keep meaning to tell you, I got your card! It definitely made me smile. c:

[scarletmorning]

Lol, my parents always think my lower case "f" is a "t" XD

Yay, 8D

[raphiael]

I don't think there's anything wrong with not liking to see characters paired certain ways, honestly. As long as you're not being a snit about it, you know? I mean, for example, I really love Cormag/Tana, and I don't really like pairing either with another person. But I'm not going to get up in someone's business about how it's the only good pairing, or it's "more canon" than some other pairing, or get really defensive if someone gives (civilly presented) reasons why they don't like it, you know?

I mean, it's fandom. It's not work There's no reason why you'd have to read or look at something you don't like, no matter what the reason you don't like it is. Just as long as you're not obnoxious about it or spoiling other people's fun.

But if it's more like, I dunno, "seeing X not with Y in any form causes me severe emotional distress"? Then my only advice would be to just step away from the fandom entirely.

[scarletmorning]

I would never voice this feeling to a writer, because everyone is allowed to write whatever they want.

The feeling is just... strange. It's quickly over as well. :/ It confuses me.